On a Quest

My journey to this point is not all that different from others in the world.  It's been filled with ups and downs, peaks and valleys.  Somehow, I've always managed to work hard, push through, and come out on the other side. 

But this year has been different.  I've met challenges and low points unlike those I've encountered before.  And while those looking at me see a person who has come out on the other side, I'm still pushing through on the inside.

These things weighing me down are minor to the challenges that some are facing, but they are so very real in my heart.  They make me question who I am and the choices I make.  But they also force me to look deep within myself and realize that only I can change those things that make me unhappy. 

I am fortunate to be in a job that allows me a little downtime for self reflection/improvement.  In the past, I have chosen a theme for my summer.  This summer is The Quest to Find My Sparkle.  Because somewhere in the last year, I lost something.  It's that something that pushes me on when I want to give up.  It's that something that comes from my heart instead of my head.  It's that something that is so indescribable that I can only refer to it as "my sparkle." 

So that is my goal.  To simply find my sparkle again.  It's going to be challenge.  I'm going to have to face those things I've chosen to push away.  I'm going to have relearn so many things.  But, in the end, I'm going to come out on the other side.

And when I do,  I'll be sparkling once again!